Well it all amounts to nothing in the end.


I'm so horrible at updating this thing but I am BACK!! A LOT has happened since I last wrote in here. First of all, I went on a cruise for the holidays and it was AMAZING. I had the best time and it was so nice to be able to get away. Cruising is a little different now with COVID, but it didn't ruin our trip. However, I did end up getting COVID and it was most likely from the cruise ship. Luckily, I wasn't feeling sick while I was on the cruise and my symptoms started once I got home. The majority of the time that I had COVID I didn't even know it. I tested positive two weeks after I was already sick. (yes, I cried when I found out because this virus sucks!!) My family was sick too, but I was the only one who got a confirmed positive test. My sister originally tested negative (she probably got tested too early), and no one else was tested after the cruise. I'm grateful to have been vaccinated with a booster. Having COVID was bad but not as bad as it could have been. I don't wish it on anyone. I'm feeling much better now thanks to cough medicine and I'm glad I recovered from it!

So far, 2022 is extremely blah. I'm turning 30 this year so that doesn't make me feel any better. My birthday is toward the end of the year, so I still have time. The job search is even more terrible than it was before. (THANK GOD for Screen Rant for somewhat getting me through this depressing time!) I had an interview with Playbill for a Staff Writer position a few weeks ago. I know I shouldn't out their name, but HERE WE ARE. I must be so dumb and naive because part of me thought I had it in the bag and had a good chance of getting the job. They seemed to like me during the interview. Since my luck is horrible and I never get any job I want, they rejected me. I took it pretty hard and was really upset. I stupidly replied to the rejection email, which I NEVER do. I should've just kept my mouth shut but felt like I needed to have the last word. Then, my mom told me to apply to another job there for a Weekend Writer/Editor even though I didn't want to. I did it anyway and they probably won't reply. I was feeling pretty down until another Off-Broadway theatre contacted me to interview for a Marketing Coordinator position a few days later. The interview was ok. I feel like they didn't like me. I don't even know if I got the job or not because they haven't emailed me, but I don't really care at this point.

Tomorrow will be 3 years since I published my first article at BroadwayWorld. It's a weird feeling because I've accomplished so much while writing for them, but I haven't done a lot articles for the site recently. Also, Screen Rant seems to be my main focus because there's more content to work with. I still get excited after a new article I publish goes online, which is a good thing. The feeling is the same whether it's for Screen Rant or BroadwayWorld. I'll never forget that feeling when the first one went online. I interviewed an actor who played Emmett in the national tour of Legally Blonde. Seeing my name associated with the article made me feel special. Writing for BroadwayWorld opened so many doors for me. Being able to interview people like Adam Pascal, Jennifer Damiano, Fredi Walker-Browne, Ace Young, and so many more. Seeing bucket-list shows like The Wild Party and Aida. Attending concerts at Holmdel and Axelrod for Laura Benanti, Eden Espinosa, Caissie Levy (COMING UP!), and so many others. I am so grateful for these experiences even though sometimes it feels like it hasn't gotten me anywhere.

It's fitting that I'll be celebrating my 3-year anniversary of officially becoming a "writer" by seeing Company on Broadway tomorrow with my mom. We saw a local production of the show in 2019 and I wrote a review about it for BWW. I've been waiting to see the new revival because I had tickets for April 2020, but we all know what happened. It's hard to still be passionate about writing and try to find my place in this business when I've faced so much rejection. Even with BWW, I feel like certain people have tried to shut me out and make me feel less than. I can't be excited about the future if I don't even know if whatever lies ahead will make me happy. I have to try to take advantage of the things I can control and turn them into positive experience. It's probably going to be tough for a little while, but if I can get through having COVID, I can do anything!!

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