A Rock In A Hard Place

 


Well.. I'm back again, pouring my feelings into this blog. Life has been interesting. I don't really have a word for it. Being the only unemployed "kid" in the house with my parents is kind of strange. I almost feel the urge to want to work again because it's sort of like being an only child which is kind of boring. To keep myself in check, I think about last year at this time when everyone else wasn't working and I was, and they got to enjoy the pool, beach, shopping, etc. Now I get to do that so I'll appreciate the time while I have it.

Of course, all roads lead back to BroadwayWorld because I did something BIG. I got an opportunity to interview Broadway star and original cast member of RENT, Adam Pascal. [INTERVIEW LINK HERE!]  I'll be seeing him in concert in July. The interview was pretty amazing. I'm not gonna lie. It helped that I saw him in concert with Anthony Rapp and met him back in 2016 because I was familiar with his personality beforehand. I remember how nice he was when I met him, so I was excited to be able to speak to him on the phone. I mean, how often do you pick up the phone and the person on the other end of the line says "Hi, this is Adam Pascal." That is something I'll NEVER forget. I was scared as hell, but our conversation was really nice and the questions I asked flowed really well. He was also very real and authentic, and talked about things that might be unpopular opinions to theater fans and other actors. I really appreciated how honest he was. We talked for a good half hour and it didn't feel rushed. I didn't want to take up too much of his time and he didn't seem to care. I even told him the story of when I met him and he said bye to my sister and another girl when we were standing at the end of the street afterward. He probably thought that was weird but oh well.

Broadway is reopening again in the fall and 54 Below is opening in June. I am happy about that because this is what I've wanted during the whole pandemic, but it makes me emotional. I really want to be a part of this industry so badly. I know that BroadwayWorld is a way to dip my toe into it, but sometimes I feel like it's not enough. I've been doing this for two years and I have such a hunger to move forward and do it for a living. I'm grateful for the experience and every single article I've done means so much to me. I guess the Adam Pascal interview made me realize what I am capable of and I worked so hard to get to that point. It just sucks that there are people who do the same thing and get paid for it. I always have hope that I can get there no matter what, but for now I'm trying not to care as much or take it so hard. I got really emotional a few days after the interview and the same thing happened when I did an article about Laura Benanti. It is probably a mix of that and Broadway opening up and not knowing how to handle it. Even though I don't get paid to do any of it, I work hard. I do everything myself most of the time with little to no training or help. I just want it to be worth something one day. I know it will be.

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