2021: A Year Of Hope?


Well, it's a new year. We've made it to 2021. The year 2020 has been no less than a shit show. A pandemic started, my sister lost her job, I lost my job, two of my vacations were cancelled, and I'm pretty sure I went insane. When I look back, I can't even believe what a year it has been. The thing that hurt the most is that Broadway shut down - and is STILL shut down and not having that to make me happy has really hurt. It's even worse that no one knows when Broadway will return which is extremely annoying and sad. 

I hate to be THAT person, but I do think that 2020 had some kind of silver lining. When the pandemic hit, my sister came back home and when she lost her job she moved here permanently. That allowed her to spend more time than she ever has with us and I don't know if that would happened had it not been for covid. (She also gave me the bed from her apartment so I can selfishly say I'm happy about that!) I also lost my job in an unexpected way. I have to say that I'm very grateful for it. I know it sounds shitty to say, but I was so scared to look for another job when I was struggling there because I was worried I wouldn't find anything so I stayed in the current situation I was in because I was "comfortable." I know it ended badly, but it gave me the excuse to get out. I am still very fragile from it but I managed to get myself insurance and unemployment and it shows the awful company I worked for that they will not break me. I've also had two job interviews since so jokes on them. The whole situation also gave me a lot of clarity and made me realize that my family and health are the most important thing because they are not replaceable. I can get another job, but if anything happens to me or someone in my family I may not get that back.

I am hoping that 2021 will lead to the virus getting better, going on a much-deserved vacation with my family, and FINALLY seeing another show in a theater again! Of course I would like to do all of that when it is safe, but I can't wait to have those opportunities again. I would also like to find a job that allows me to better utilize my skills and be valued. I know that the perfect job doesn't exist, but I still have my eye on the theater industry and I don't know if that drive or passion will ever go away. I don't want it to, and I know I will make it there somehow. I am going to continue to challenge myself creatively and put myself out there because I know there is someone who will appreciate it.

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