The World Turned Upside Down




Yesterday, on Friday the 13th I was fired from my job. I wasn't doing well for awhile, but the day before I just exploded. I was having a decent day, which is how it usually starts. A customer called asking for an affidavit and being extremely pushy. I put her on hold, attempting to help her and was very overwhelmed. I cursed at her as I was hanging up. Shortly after, I called her back to sincerely apologize, which I NEVER DO. She didn't care, asked me my name, and I hung up again. My boss found out because the lady left a voicemail explaining the situation. I was going to call my boss to explain myself but ended up leaving for the day around 3pm because I felt uncomfortable.

The next day, I logged on to my computer wondering what would happen. I thought if anything I would be written up. I was put on a call with my boss, her boss, and an HR person. They decided that because this happened multiple times (they said 3 but I only remember 2 incidences), I was being "unprofessional" and they fired me right on the spot. So I was done right then and there. I made the customer upset and it turns out the customer was even crazier than I am and they felt badly for her so that was their reason. I called my boss personally to explain myself YET AGAIN, but she wasn't having it. I had to return my computer three hours later. Well, it's their loss. I didn't even curse AT the customer. I was pushed to the brink and abused at this job. I admitted to them that I had anxiety and other issues and that didn't even matter. I worked my ASS OFF for a year and a half doing three times as much work as the other employees. And they allowed ONE (or three?) interactions with customers they JUST MET to determine my fate.

I started this blog when I got this job and it feels kind of full-circle to me. I didn't want it to end this way. Especially working from home. I think that's what made it worse. When I was in the office yesterday returning my computer it was sad. I made a lot of friends here who supported me and had my back and it sucks that the management here did not. But things took a turn for the worst. This company is pathetic. They use people up. They chew up their employees and spit them out like garbage. I've been through enough shit in my life. I need to move on, work on my mental health, and search for a job where I am respected that doesn't make me feel physically sick everyday. I wasted a year and a half busting my ass for them to do this to me. So, GOOD LUCK WITHOUT ME! I will be so much better off leaving this vile toxic environment.





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