One Year Later


It's been a year since I started at my job at Gannett. I can't believe it. I haven't been at many jobs for a year, so this is a big deal for me. I remember those long stretches of unemployment... sleeping in until 10:30am, staying up until midnight. Waking up and feeling depressed because if I had to apply to ONE MORE JOB, I was going to lose it. It's been a crazy year for sure. There have been many ups and downs. My boss makes me so crazy sometimes I have to go into the bathroom and cry, my coworker who sits next to me can be annoying as hell, and the customers who I deal with each day get on my nerves. But it isn't all bad either. This job led me to reconnect with one of my childhood friends, who left the job for two months but will be coming back in two weeks! I FINALLY got a full-time job in my field with benefits and that was it.. my parents left me alone and stopped nagging me about finding a job. I was able to breathe again and have some calmness and stability, which feels really good. After I was let go from my admin job a few years ago, I did a lot of self-reflecting and soul-searching. I researched a lot of strategies to figure out how to get through the dark time I was living in, and one of the strategies was to make a list of "what I want in a job." I did just that and I saved it, then looked back at it once I was offered this job. 

What I want in a job (The things that are bolded apply to my job now)

  • Industry: Entertainment, media, theatre, social media, marketing
  • Full-time
  • Challenging - a lot of responsibility
  • Benefits (by the end of the year)
  • Good working environment
  • Perks (not required)
  • Admin or creative
  • Ability to move up

The majority of these bullets apply to my current job, which is surprising. I will continue to strive to eventually meet the needs of every bullet - but I realized that no job is perfect. There are probably a million people out there who have "better jobs" than me, but I don't care. In fact, those people probably aren't as happy with themselves as I am. I find it stupid that I even made a previous post about my "next step," because I don't even know what the fuck that is anymore. Right now, I'm enjoying having a stable, paying job while pursuing my writing on the side. I'm lucky I'm even able to do both. I remember that first day at Gannett when I felt like a small fish in a big pond. I remember eating lunch in the kitchen alone and not knowing anyone. Now I recognize everyone there and even though I'm not friends with them, I feel like I'm okay with where I am.. at least for now.

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