This Is 27.


This is it. Another year has come and gone. I'm now 27, aka 3 years away from 30. *CRINGE* Getting older terrifies me. It scares me. I don't want to get older. Birthdays are HARD. Most people enjoy them but it brings on a lot of sadness and mixed emotions for me. It makes me reflect on my life a lot. I have to say, this year has been pretty good to me. The first half of it sucked, but I finally got my shit together (sort of). I got a full-time job and I found a passion outside of my job in BroadwayWorld. This little freelance gig that I thought I'd take on because I thought I'd have some kind of part-time temp job that I hated and needed another outlet, but it ended up not working out anyway. I took on something that I wasn't sure if I liked or not and found real fulfillment in it. I realized that I wanted to be a writer all along but maybe I just didn't know it yet. I'm finally able to say that I want to write about theater and entertainment and I won't settle for anything else. I've been given an opportunity where I can step up to the plate, put myself out there, and be challenged. If I want something I will make it happen in every which way possible.

I think about where I was a year ago and I feel grateful. I was in such a low place and thought there was no hope for me. My parents were pushing me to apply to furniture stores, sketchy office jobs, pharmacy tech programs, even substitute teaching. But something didn't feel right. I knew that something was going to happen for me that was meant to be. I believed in myself and even though it took awhile, I'm finally on the path where I need to be. My job is okay. It's still boring and I continue to crave more, which is where BroadwayWorld can be helpful at times. I still think about New York. I feel like I belong there. I'm starting to put myself out there little by little and I sent some writing samples to a few jobs. I'm not doing it obsessively like I did when I was unemployed, but it gives me confidence and I know that one day I will make it to the place where I want to be.

This year I definitely have a new outlook on life. I see a change in myself where I don't take anything too seriously anymore. I've been through so much that I pick and choose my battles and I have no time for negativity or petty bullshit. My career is on the right track, but personally I'm working on myself everyday. I'm not perfect and I have a lot more reflecting to do. I'm looking forward to all of the memories I will be making this year and I hope 27 brings on a lot of exciting things!

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