The Next Step


Author's Note: Once again, I haven't blogged in awhile. BUT I AM BACK!! I hope everyone is enjoying their summer. I am, when I'm not suffering at work. I also wrote ANOTHER REVIEW for one of my favorite shows!! READ IT. ENJOY IT! #selfpromotion

Every time I've had a job, I've always thought about what the "next step" is. I was always worried about working somewhere that was unpaid, having a job that would end soon, or just FLAT OUT HATING my job and wanting to apply elsewhere so I can leave. This is the first time I actually don't have to worry about that, which is relaxing and terrifying at the same time. This week especially, my job has been pissing me off so much. The newbie rose-colored glasses have FINALLY worn off and I'm starting to become irritated by everything and everyone. Is it me just being in a mood/time of the month, my general attitude, or am I actually having valid feelings? Who the fuck even knows. First of all, my boss is FAKE AF. I was trying to decide since I've been working here whether I actually like her or not, and it's gone back and forth. I realized that she is bipolar. When she's having a good day or isn't upset with you, she'll be nice to you, but when she's having a terrible day or you do something wrong, she hates you. It's really awful and annoying. Also, I HATE how everyone at this job who has a fucking temper issue and does things that are absolutely UNCALLED FOR don't even get in trouble. It makes me LIVID. Everyone has been leaving the job for various reasons and it's a total shit show. I'm pretty sure 8 (or more) people have left since March.

This makes me think about what my "next step" is. I keep putting it in the back of my mind every time I think about it because I know I basically just started this job, but I can't help it. When I read Giuliana Rancic's book, she said that she started in the mailroom. I like to think of this job as my version of the "mailroom," or "call center" in my case. My original "plan" was to stay here about a year and a half, and then try to get a transfer to their office in NYC to be a writer/editor for the entertainment section. I shouldn't even have a plan at all but that seems the most reasonable. On the other hand, I've been so angry at this company that I always wonder what it would be like to actually have a chance at another bigger company such as NBC, ABC, or a company in theater. I have this habit of not living in the moment and always thinking ahead and it's an annoying one, but I'm trying to stop. I never wanted to be the person with a boring 9-5 job that I just tolerate for stability, benefits, and decent pay but here we are. I want to be the person with the job that everyone thinks is cool and wish they could have, but I have my whole life to get to that point.

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