What does it mean to be in a “good place”?


In this day and age, people on social media like to brag about their lives. It is a disease. I've seen so many posts saying "I'm in such a 'GOOD PLACE'." What does that even mean? Is it getting engaged? Married? Buying a new car/house/pet? Getting your "dream job"? I would like to think that I'm in a good place now because I haven't been for the past three years. I was stuck in a dark tunnel waiting for the light, and it mostly had to do with my unsuccessful job search. Then, when the skies finally opened up I was blessed with a day job and a side gig. Now, I've been lucky in my life in some ways and unlucky in others. I'm not one to brag but I fucking deserve every good thing that happens to me. 

While having a job does make me happier in some ways, it fucks with my emotions in others. Usually I would cry and complain about previous jobs I've had constantly (because let's face it, they sucked) but I've been pretty good about this job because there isn't much to complain about. I held in all of my emotions all week and randomly had an emotional breakdown yesterday. WHY? I don't know. Last weekend was hard because it was Passover and I had to go to my cousins' house and pretend to be someone I'm not, except this time I actually have a decent job. I've finally gotten my shit together and that made me feel good about myself.

I was also having random thoughts about the rest of my life and deciding what I kind of career I want to pursue. I know it's not something I need to worry about, but of course I worry anyway. For so long, I was set on being a TV producer and when I finally realized that it might not be a reality, things changed. Whether it was a good thing or not, I don't know. But I'm pretty sure I'm set on this entertainment journalism thing because at least I know I might have a chance. Right now, the plan is to stay with my company and try to move out and get a job at their NYC office in a year or two as a journalist. I started overthinking it and wondering if I was ready to move out and take on such a crazy job when my job right now is to stable and calm for the most part. Then, I found this quote on Tumblr that really spoke to me:

This quote couldn't me more true. I've spent so many years looking for a job and trying to be in a "good place." For every job I've had, I was always wishing I was somewhere else. For once I'm in a stable job that pays decent, has a good schedule, and even offers insurance. Instead of thinking about the rest of my life and the next steps of jumping into a crazy career, I should just enjoy the quiet moments - the "good place" that I'm in right now.

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